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A week ago I updated my “Junior who” post to keep you all updated on what’s happened during the past 2-3 years. In the post I talked about my back injury and today I want to try and talk about the aftermath of this injury.
I was out driving with my parents and we were stuck in traffic on a hill. I was on the backseat behind my dad driving and my mom was sitting next to him. All of a sudden somebody drove full speed and hit the end of our car – while we were holding still due to traffic.
The woman driving were talking to her daughter on the backseat of her car, which took away her concentration. Our car was close to totally destroyed and had to be fixed for about 10.000 EUROs.
I’ve been on sick leave since the accident on Feb 1st 2020. I have massive issues with my back and neck area now and I can’t do my job as a carpenter.
I went in to get an MR scan and they told me I might have a fractured bone in my back. They weren’t sure so they sent me in for an CT scan which didn’t show anything for some reason. I received different feedback depending on which doctor/medical person I talked to.
Is it me – mentally?
No matter what the scan shows, I know I have an injured back. So, getting to know the scan showed nothing broke me. It is literally keeping me tied to my bed for hours every day due to the pain. When I try to workout, I know for a fact that I will be feeling the pain the next day.
Not knowing what’s going to happened is the worst thing. I don’t know how to act as I’ve never been in a situation like this before. I feel like nobody believes me. I feel like I’m alone in all of this as nobody understands – and I hate the feeling.
It brings me down and at the moment I don’t know what to do. I’ve contacted my lawyer to see what I can do and what treatment I might be able to get. I need help in this matter and I hope he can help me.
But, the main problem right now is dealing with it mentally. I can deal with the pain for now but fighting a mental battle is the main problem right now.
It is really a stuggle and I hate having to rely on other people. I’m having a hard time asking for help and I’ve never had mental issues before, so it’s a brand new world. I’ve never felt as alone as I do right now.
My mom has a whiplash from a similar accident back in 2006 and she’s told me that they couldn’t see anything on her scans back then either. Hopefully, I don’t have a whiplash but right now there’s a big chance of me having it.
I’ve dealt with struggles and other issues before and I know I’ll beat this. It just takes time. I just need to wait and deal with one day at a time. Having this platform to express my feelings and struggles is what it’s all about – so I want to thank you for reading and stopping by.
With everything that’s going on in the world, I just want you to stay safe and treat everybody the way you want to be treated. It doesn’t take much to change your mentality.